Grieving

Just a note to all of you that read the blog.

My sister passed away last Sunday night. She had a heart attack, and I think it might have been complications with the medicine and the chemo that she was on.

I had just visited her on President’s day week, came back for a week and then she was gone. I had to travel back up to Pennsylvania to be with my mom this week and came back to Baltimore yesterday.

I know that most of you have known about the love/hate relationship I had with my sister. She was a very hard woman to love and she did a lot of things to the family that made me really mad. But deep down she still was my sister and I loved her.

She was only 39.

And she was much better in the last two years since she got sick. She had been nicer to me and my mom and a little less unstable. But I was not expecting this.

It still hasn’t really sunk in. I feel like I am standing on shaky ground and the cracks are beginning to form and if I am not careful it might just swallow me down.

But I am making an appointment with my psychiatrist today and my therapist too.

that is all for now. Thank you my friends