Archive for November, 2008


Thanks for all the kind words on Wednesday.  I know I was a bit bitchy.  I felt bitchy.

Yesterday was very low-key.  I got up late.  Chris made waffles.  Later that day we went over to the Nautilus Diner and I had turkey and stuffing and cranberry sauce, and I felt better.   I couldn’t eat a whole portion but maybe that is a good thing. My appetite has been off all week.

Last night I had an unrestful sleep so I am feeling a little tired today.   I woke up several times during the night and at 5:30 I woke up with my head completely clogged.  I found the nose spray and it worked but about an hour later I had to get up for real to get ready for work.

And I am not sure if it is my allergies, or what, but my taste buds seem to be acting up and nothing tastes right today.  I had some microwave mac and cheese and it tasted funny so I threw most of it out.  and then I had some ginger ale, and THAT tasted funny, too.     So, I have this odd taste in my mouth and I am tired but at least that stops me from being worried and that is a good thing, right?

Oh, and I basically said “to hell with it” to all the teen books today and started an adult novel, called In the Dark by Mark Billingham.  I really like Mark Billingham and I have had this one on my desk and it really won’t take me that long to read and I only have two more teen books to read anyway, so I am going to spend the weekend reading an adult novel.   I really need it.   Even if it is rather tense and involves a drive-by shooting.   I guess I don’t mind tragedy when it happens to other people!!!

Oh, did you see on the news this morning that a store clerk was crushed to death when a crowd pushed their way into a Wal-Mart?  Can you believe it?  What could they be selling that would cause something like that to happen?  I would rather pay a couple of extra dollars and have my life, thank you very much.  If this is what black Friday has turned into, I am glad to be at work.   You won’t see me at a mall this weekend!

And, as I do most of my holiday shopping online, you won’t see me out, anyway!  I really only have Chris and my mom and my sister to think about and we really don’t exchange all that much, so I can do it from my living room.   And I like it just fine.

Anyway. Thanks again for your support.  It keeps me blogging.  And be safe if you go out to meet the crowds.   I don’t want any of you getting crushed!

Have a good weekend.


November 28, 2008 at 8:53 pm 6 comments

Ah Thanksgiving.

I am not really feeling it this year.

To tell you the truth,  I am tired of hearing about it.  I am happy that everybody has a big family and am thrilled that they are all getting together and putting a bird in the oven and making yams with marshmallows and cranberry sauce and stuffing and the like.

I just don’t want to hear about it.

I am feeling sad because my sister still has cancer and it is not seeming to get any better.  It started out as breast cancer and then it moved to her lungs and now it has moved into her bones.    And she has been in chemo for two years now and it doesn’t seem to be doing anything but getting worse so they are going to try stronger chemo.   She had to sit in the chemo chair for five hours the other day.  And my mom is getting older and she is retired and she is taking care of my sister.  And I am in Baltimore and what can I do?  Anything? Nothing?   I guess I just feel helpless.

And then we have the holidays coming up.  Christmas and Thanksgiving and somehow we are supposed to thank GOD for doing all of this to us,  like GOD has ever listened to anything we have ever had to say.  And then you try to tell them that you are pissed off at GOD and they tell you that GOD has some sort of plan and all of this happens for a reason.    Well, I am ready to know what that reason is because  there has to be some explanation.

Chris is having similar problems.  His mother is dying of a lung disease and she is rather reclusive and sometimes talks to him and sometimes he can’t get in touch with her for days, so both of us are moping around as best we can.

I think we are going to a diner together tomorrow.     I am glad we aren’t going out with family or anything because then I would have to plaster a forced smile on my face and I just don’t feel like it right now.   I just feel miserable.

And I know, it does get worse around the holidays.   That’s what they say anyway.  And I have been doing a lot better with things and luckily my only vice seems to be food so at least I am not drinking myself into a coma.

I guess some of us just keep getting things piled on us to see if we can still stand up at the end of the day.   Somehow I am still standing.    I know I try to avoid emotion. I read. I play video games. I listen to music.   I try to keep myself occupied.

But I get scared, too.

And I have never watched anyone die of cancer and I don’t know what will happen.  I don’t know how to be prepared.     And my sister is keeping a positive outlook so maybe she will get better.  I am the one who is full of doom and gloom and always predicting the worst.

Predict the worse.  Then the worse usually happens.

Anyway.  I hope you all have a marvelous Thanksgiving.  And I hope I have a good anti-thanksgiving.

And have a good weekend, too.

November 26, 2008 at 10:16 pm 7 comments

Blame it on Facebook

I know I have not been posting as of late.

I think the blame can be put on Facebook.

We have an experiment at work.  We are all supposed to create a Facebook account so we can learn what one is and what it can do.   And so I complied and created my account.

Man, does Facebook suck up time.  You make all sorts of friends on Facebook.  You can search and reconnect with old friends.   You can set up applications and make funny cartoon animals, or create a werewolf and attack your friends, or send Facebook email to people you once knew.   It is quite fun and like I said before, it wastes a lot of time.

That and the fact that I am counting down the days to be finished with the teen novels.  I have been reading my little head off.   Some are wonderful, and some are terrible.  The last three I am quite ambivalent about.  But my meeting is in early December so they all have to be read by then.  I have read almost three this weekend!

Oh, and I am playing Lego Batman on the Xbox.  Lego Batman rocks.  If you have an Xbox, run out and get it.  You will love it.  Trust me on this.  

Last night I had this recipe for vegetarian chili.  If you see a recipe  that ever calls for a fennel bulb, run away.  The chili was terrible.  I don’t think it had enough tomatoes and I tried to make it in the slow cooker and it cooked for a long time.  It had three kinds of beans (white , kindey and black)  and it was terrible.  And it must have made five  pounds.  I was going to feed it to the dog, but all those beans would have proved to be a disaster.   And I don’t want to try and sleep through dog farts.   So, away it went.   But at least I can say I tried.

Thanksgiving is coming and I don’t have plans.  I think Chris and I are going to a diner.  I am happy about this because I am feeling antisocial and I don’t want to have to force a smile through dinner.  I just want to eat with Chris.  Is that too much to ask?

Anyway. We are making cranberry bread  (and before you get too excited, it is from a mix)  and then we are going to watch some TV or something.   Then I am going to bed.

So, you really haven’t missed much.

Get on Facebook.  I will see you there!

November 24, 2008 at 1:39 am 5 comments

Give me five seconds…

and watch THIS!

November 14, 2008 at 11:52 am 4 comments

And then I found THIS!

And it changed my life..

Unless you prefer THIS….

November 11, 2008 at 2:41 pm 1 comment

Sister Unity

This was on Tiger Yogiji’s blog.  And it is important enough to share. 

So watch it and pass it on.

You go Sister Unity!

November 9, 2008 at 5:28 pm 1 comment

Happy Birthday to Me!

Just a Saturday note, my friends.

Tomorrow is my birthday.  I will be 43 years old!  43!   Me!

And I have the day off, so I really plan on relaxing and taking it easy.   To make things even better, I decided to take off on Monday as well, to give me an extra day for festivities.

Not that I am going out and party and have a hangover or anything.    I just wanted an extra day off!

Chris and I have several plans for the day.  We are probably going to get up and go to First Watch for Breakfast.  It really is one of our favorite breakfast places and they make wonderful things.  Maybe I will get some pancakes.  That will start the day off right.

For dinner I have made reservations for Roy’s restaurant and Hawaiin fusion grill, have any of you been to one?   Apparently they are in several locations, and they started off in Hawaii but have migrated across the US.   We have one located in one of the nice hotels down near the harbor in Baltimore and I always wanted to try it,  so I decided that for my birthday I will.     It will make a nice change because it will be somewhere new and exciting and I have been to the web page and the menu looks pretty good.  Lots of seafood and I really like that.   I will fill you in with a full review when I get back. 

I only hope for 2 things for my birthday,  I hope to get Fable 2 and Lego Batman for my Xbox 360.   I have been having a GREAT time with the Xbox,  and I am so glad I got it!  I checked out Lego Indiana Jones from the library and it is really a whole lotta fun,  and I am sure Lego Batman will be even better!   So I spend a lot of my free time playing video games.  Am I having a midlife crisis?   I am not sure.    I think it must be a guy thing because we have another librarian here that loves his video games.    I promise I will still try to post!

Other than that, it is crunch time for my young adult novel group.  We have to have everything read by the December meeting and we still have about 16 titles to discuss so I have to get them read.  And some of them are LONG.  I spent yesterday reading one called “Bonechiller” by Macnamee  and it was pretty good, all about the chilling landscape of Canada and a Windigo that seems to be targeting teens in the area.    A good creepy/horror novel that I think teens would really like.   I read it in one sitting.

I am struggling with one called Graceling now about a young woman with the gift for killing.  The gift is called a grace, and you know you have one if your eyes are different colors.  (i.e. one blue/one brown) .  Well the young woman has met a young man who also seems to have the grace for killing and I think a romance is going to blossom.    I don’t HATE it, but I am not really a fantasy reader.  When I was younger I read a lot of fantasy but it seems the story lines tend to be the same,  quests and such,  and I quickly graduated to mystery.    And fantasy novels tend to be long  (this one is almost 500 pages) and I am only about 100 pages in.   So I will see what I can do with it.   Maybe Monday when I am off, I will hunker down and READ!

Anyway, this post is turning out to be much longer than anticipated. Lucky for you!

hope you are all having a good weekend.

November 8, 2008 at 2:08 pm 5 comments

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