The Secret
May 22, 2007 at 1:50 am 7 comments
I have a secret.
I am not at liberty to share it, but it makes me incredibly happy. I have been smiling all weekend.
It is a truly remarkable secret.
I have alway had trouble keeping secrets. Not that I have ever known that many. People that I know are not very secretive. And I have always worn my heart on my sleeve.
In my family I grew up with secrets. My mother was always afraid of “what the neighbors might think.” Not that the neighbors ever came over. My parents did not really entertain. I am sure they had friends, mostly people that they worked with and occasionally they did go out and leave us with a babysitter, so I do believe that they had some kind of social life. But the neighbors never did actually come over and I never could figure out what we were supposed to be hiding from them.
I had a friend named Dana and I used to go over to her house for the holidays. It was amazing! They had a table full of people and a full bar sitting out on the kitchen counter. People were laughing and drinking and running from room to room. It was a houseful of merriment. We never drank in my family. We did have a liquor cabinet, and it did contain a few bottles. The tops became crusty from congealed sugar. I do remember my father buying us some cold duck on New Year’s and we always got a sip.
Sometimes my aunt was invited over and I think she might have been toasted. Of couse, since we never talked about such things, my sister and I were never to know. I do remember on occasion in which my sister was getting ready for a dance recital. She had a sparkly orange dance outfit with gold fringe hanging from the sleeves. My aunt insisted on trying it on. It barely fit. I can see her now, standing in the living room in my sister’s dance recital outfit. My mother was mortified. I am sure glad the neighbors all stayed home that day.
So my family is no stranger to secrets.
And now I have one.
And it is wonderful.
Have a great day, everyone!
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1. Kev in NZ | May 22, 2007 at 2:20 am
I so hope it’s a nice secret. It must be if it is making you so happy. Hold on to it and enjoy the feeling.
Hugs to you.
Kev in NZ
2. urspo | May 22, 2007 at 3:27 am
hohoho
there are no secrets in blog land
at least give us a hint you tease. 🙂
3. johnmichael | May 22, 2007 at 3:44 am
I am laughing so hard at the thought of your aunt (even though I have no idea what she looks like) trying on a recital outfit and the mortified look on your mothers face..thanks for sharing this memory. It made me smile.
4. tigeryogi | May 22, 2007 at 2:03 pm
Out with it! Out. With. It!!!
You’re getting married, aren’t you?!!!!!
You cannot post something like this and not tell us!!! 😦
5. Jim | May 22, 2007 at 3:54 pm
Hmm….
Could there be another wedding coming up, is that what I smell in the air??
(sniff sniff sniff sniff)
Nah, methinks one of the cats is having a gas attack… gotta go and open a window…
If it’s making you smile, all the better… you gonna keep us in suspense for long?
6. Doug | May 23, 2007 at 9:50 pm
Oh! Cruel shadows!
Shrouds dimming from view,
Flashing glimpses teasing,
Stirring deep in my soul,
Yearning to discern,
That which I cannot know.
Your secret is safe with you and you alone. 🙂
(P.S., I have no idea where this came from. I was struck my inspiration.)
7. Coco | May 24, 2007 at 1:32 am
Secret?!
I love secrets!! SHARE!! : )
I’m really glad that this wonderful news is happy news for you!
Blessings.
ps
btw…
i’m sort of “redecorating” & organizing my blog…
i’ve titled it: Teacher Estrella